Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Where do I belong?
So I'm sitting in a Christian coffee shop (free wi-fi = good) and working on some homework and stuff. As I'm sitting here I realize that I feel pretty out of place. They're piping Jesus-music over the speakers and they have autographed pictures of Jennifer Knapp and Third Day up on the walls. I remember a time when this would offer me a comfortable feeling, knowing that I'm surrounded by my "own kind". But now I'm not one of these people.
The odd thing is that I don't feel totaly comfortable in a "secular" environment either. I wonder if that's how I'm supposed to feel - never comfortable anywhere, really. That reminds me of a conversation I had recently about living life like a missionary. Maybe that's a part of the problem with North American Christianity - we've made it our goal to be comfortable, when all along we should be living like our comfort doesn't really matter that much. I don't know really.
Note: I really hate the use of the term "secular". In my experience it's used by Christians to demonize and denigrade anything that is not produced by Christians (e.g. secular-music). I think what pisses me off the most is that by calling the other stuff "secular" it makes the assumption that what is left is "sacred" as those are the only two possible categories, and I'm not ready to label much of the product of the Christian Corporate Machine as sacred. I think that category should have more meaning and power.